August 29, 2008
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Foreskins.
They should not be taken away. Especially without permission. Especially from helpless babies.
And I'm saying this because... I miss mine. I feel violated, incomplete. They cut off a piece of my penis when I was a newborn baby! It's a piece that's supposed to be there, a piece that serves important physiological functions, a piece that evolved to be there.
I am now struggling with this matter psychologically. The sense of having a part of my body---my sexual anatomy, no less---forcibly removed without my input is taking a toll on my body image.
I don't know why it's particularly bothering me now; I haven't had a foreskin for twenty years now, and I've known that there was something wrong with this for at least three or four of those years... so why does it particularly bother me now?
Perhaps it is part of a broader problem I've been having with body image in general... I feel overweight, unattractive. Cutting out soft drinks from my diet and increasing my intake of water and rate of exercise has actually been fairly effective so far, as I should remind myself; I've already lost almost 5 kilograms and in a few months, if I keep this up, I may actually be in the best shape I've been in years---if not my entire life. In that sense a brief crisis of body image may have put me on a better track for health and fitness.
So why do I keep worrying about my penis? Wondering if it's not big enough, wishing it weren't circumcised... Why does my mind keep going back to this subject? Is it just an unfortunate side effect of body image consciousness? Is it something independent that was triggered by this? Is it a coincidence? Is this really something I should be worried about, enough to, for example, see a therapist?
By the way, there are ways of restoring, at least to some extent, one's foreskin. They are difficult, somewhat strange, and very time-consuming (as in, two years)... but they do supposedly work. Apparently the general principle is similar to that used in building muscle: stretch it until it tears microscopically, then let it heal and regrow larger. I doubt you can ever get it back exactly the same way it would have been if it had never been cut off; but it seems better than nothing. Maybe I'll try that.
Or maybe what I need is to figure out how to stop worrying about it. I'm not sure.
Comments (3)
very true, only if its happening all the time.
and actually, a lot of girls prefer circumsized guys. theyre usually cleaner and they give you more pleasure.. not to mention all the skin of an uncircumsized penis generally gets in the way. plus, while bigger is better, if a smaller guy knows what hes doing, than thats all that matters.
@plasticdreamss -
Actually, in studies, more women prefer men who are not circumcised. Also... I'm pretty sure "people like the way it looks" is not a good reason to remove body parts without permission.
But yes, I'm obsessed with penis size, and I need to relax. My own "wonder weasel" (I should endeavor to use a different euphemism every day for a year!) is quite average, actually... and if I do say so myself, my desire and talent for giving oral sex is exceptional.
@pnrj - hmmm i didnt know that. im just speaking from my opinion and the opinions of my friends, im sure a study is more reliable.
yes, you should relax. if your dribbling dragon (ha!) is average AND youre good at giving oral sex... believe me you don't have anything to worry about.